My Unedited Thoughts on a Few Things...

Okay so you can probably tell from the title that this post is going to have nothing to do with adoption or my love story.  Instead of doing a continuation of my previous posts I wanted to write a quick blurb about some thoughts I've been having lately.  I just want to throw them out there, maybe plant a few seeds of thought in your head.  I don't ever expect the world to agree with me.  That would be ignorant and naive all at the same time. I appreciate differences, differences are what make this world go round. However, there are some things about people, including myself, that I just DON'T understand. And I wanna see if I'm the only one...So here I have listed a few things accompanied with some meme's, and then my thoughts on the matter.  Hopefully this post is more entertaining than anything else, I'm not looking to start a riot or be taken seriously.  This is just me, throwing crap out there for the world to hear:)

Item number one: Kim freaking Kardashian A.K.A. I'msodumbbuti'mhotsowhocares


Jay-Z and Beyonce, I couldn't agree with you more.

Everyone knows who the Kardashians are right? Well if you don't, heaven has blessed your untainted soul.  And I envy you.  What happened to our nation?! I'll tell you what.  Celebrities and athletes started getting paid more than doctors and teachers and now every thing's just screwed up.  Our society, THE MEDIA, places value on the most worthless items, and the most WORTHLESS PEOPLE. Who gives a crap what Lindsay Lohan wore her first day out of prison.  And who gives an even bigger crap why Kim Kardashian got knocked up by freaking Kanye (bless his soul) while still married to her Ex husband!?!? Oh my gosh, k we gotta calm down.  I'm starting to get heated over here.  All I'm trying to say is I hate it.  I hate all of it.  There is SO much money and time wasted on these people who do absolutely nothing for anyone else and who embody the very things I abhor.  Like materialism, dishonesty, adultery, and let's face it, stupidity.  I wish they'd all just...go away.  Buy a freaking island off the coast of Antarctica and all live there. BYE.

Item number two: people who don't like animals, especially the furry ones.



Okay, so maybe you're allergic.  Then you and your allergies can leave and never come back.  It's not my fault your parents' genes messed you up...forever.  So if we're gonna be friends you either down a whole bottle of benadryl before stepping foot into my house, or ya better just not come in.  Because the second you bad mouth my dog or cat, shoo him out of the room, or tell him he STINKS AND YOU DON'T LIKE HIM! I'm gonna freak out and claim self defense when the police show up.  And for those of you who just don't like the animals. PERIOD. I don't even know what to say to you.  The meme said it all.

Item number three: Mark Wahlberg



Okay, so I actually TOTALLY get this. And why you'd want to stare at it and feel all warm and fuzzy inside. In fact, Spenser and I both get it.  So, I had to share:) For your viewing pleasure. That's all.

Item number four: Stupid people and their stupid brains



Right?! When I saw this meme online I was like THANK YOU! People are so dumb.  I'm not going to go up to one of my gay friends and ask, "Hey man, so how bout all this gay marriage debate? What do ya say? Pretty ridiculous right?... What?! You support it!? Holy crap I can't breathe. I'm so upset.  Everyone's gonna find out.  What are people gonna say? Blah Blah Blah..." Seriously? C'mon.  What kills me is when the president of Chick fil a issued a statement against gay marriage and the country was in OUTRAGE what were all the gays doin? Eating at his restaurants.  Unintelligent FOX news devotees were saying, "How dare he discriminate, how dare he voice something like that, and so on so forth."  While the rest of us said, "Uh, hello! We already knew he AND his company standards were staunchly Christian, so don't act like you just found out your mother's baby has two heads!" You're making yourself look stupid.  And secondly, I just want to thank all those intelligent homosexuals who openly supported the president of chick fil a by actually purchasing food items and eating them at his restaurants. Why would they do that you ask? Because they support FREEDOM. That's what the president of this fast food chain was exercising right? Freedom of speech? Isn't that what gay's want? Freedom? See, they're on the same team:) How nice. So shut up and leave. And take your stupid questions with you.

Item number five: I'm pretty stupid sometimes too



Okay so now that I just poked pretty hard at all you FOX news idiots I feel kinda bad. So here's a little jab at myself.  Observe above meme....Ever experienced that? Ya, well I DO THAT. All the time.  To Spenser. And it makes him so mad.  I can't help that when we're sitting, he's reading, and I'm thinking "I'm bored, I'm bored, I'm bored. I need some attention. I want you. HEY. YOU! I'M HOTTER THAN THAT BOOK YOU'RE READING!" that eventually I verbalize those very thoughts and start pouncin around like a freaking kitten on steroids. It works.  I get his attention, though slightly negative.  Until he warms up to the idea of a nice cuddle sesh.  Then he calms down, and I'm calm cause I finally got what I wanted, so it's like this perfect, calm get together we never would have had, had I not convinced him I'm much better than his book.

Item number six: What the heck, I have bags under my eyes



So the other morning I woke up and walked into the bathroom feeling like crap. Story of my life.  I looked in the mirror and holy Sh*! I had massive bags under my eyes. Pardon my false expletive but I'm not kiddin you.  I looked like I had eaten a little too much the night before and stored it under my eyes for the days to come in case our food storage ran out.  It was like all those nights I hadn't slept had finally caught up to me.  Usually I can pull off this "oh don't worry, I didn't sleep last night, but I can still get ready and keep it together" look. Mmmhmmm, not that day.  It did NOT happen that day. And I got a little upset.  Nope, that's keeping it mild.  I got A LOT upset.  I cried.  It was a mix of no sleep, ever.  Lack of carbs.  No make-up on yet so I'm gross faced.  I have to work today.  I have a test tomorrow. I smell bad.  I think I'm hormonal.  And...WHY IS IT, when I want to sleep, I CAN'T. And when I can't sleep, I REALLY want to??? Every single stinkin night I go through this with myself. It's like a never ending torture that I've been cursed with because...well....probably because I'm a Ginger.  Every night, around eleven o clock I think to myself, "Oh wow, I'm exhausted. I'm gonna go to bed now. Ya, that sounds good." So, I get all ready.  Lookin all cute and cozy in my flannel pajamas, I cuddle under the duvet, and rest my head on my nice, soft pillow. AND THEN WHAT HAPPENS?! "Holy Crap! Unicorns! Rainbows! Iguanas! Ice Cream! Chickens! Fuzzies! School hurts! Mary Kate and Ashley! Campbell's! Movies! Money! I MUST CLEAN! WOW!" And it just doesn't stop.  For like...mmmm...three hours most nights.  And then when I finally fall asleep I wake up every hour cause my dreams are so intense i just can't even stay asleep! What a life right? I tell ya, I'm livin' the dream. Woah...no pun intended.

Item number seven: Where did Michael Scott go?:(



This is my last item.  I just wanted to see if I was the only one completely left in ruins when Michael Scott left The Office.  I mean, what the heck is Steve doing now? You don't see him anywhere else! It's not like he wanted a normal life, free from all the fortune and fame. Free to be with friends, family, and loved ones.  Free to be someone other than Michael Scott for a change...No way.  He wouldn't want that.  Ya, well maybe he did. But I miss him and all his glory. I love you Steve, come back. Forever.  

Okay, so those are a few things I've been thinkin about lately and just wanted to chuck out there.  Hope they were thought provoking or at least, entertaining.  I enjoyed writing for you today.  Until next time!

Me & Him: From...Him

So for a while now Spenser and I have been mulling over the idea of letting him create a post.  He wants to say a thing or two, give the world a chance to hear it all from his side.  And I figured, why the heck not!? This should be fun...;) So, without further ado, I give you,  (part of) the other side to our story. . .

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So ShaNae asked me to write in her blog this time around since she is swamped with school, work and wedding planning. Obviously, all of us who read ShaNae’s blog know what an amazing writer she is. I apologize in advance if I bore any readers. She will be back writing soon.

There is so much I could write about, but again, to avoid boring people and making this post twenty pages long I’ll try to keep my comments sweet and simple.

The first thing I need to write about is the first time we met. ShaNae wrote a post not too long ago talking about that very thing. But it's all wrong. She says that it was at Chili’s with another friend but she is very much mistaken. Here is the real story of how we first met.

My best friend at the time was living down in Provo. I would usually go down after work or on the weekends and we would chill. I had just gotten out of a relationship so we were two bachelors who didn’t have a care in the world. After a few weeks he started hanging out with this girl who later became his girlfriend. And I kept hanging out with them since I didn’t have any other friends, so we became the three amigos and did everything together. 

One night I got a call from this friend saying that we were going to do something crazy for the weekend and that I needed to get down as soon as I was done with work. He told me that his girlfriend had brought her best friend along to hang out with us.  I didn’t think much of it at the time since I had recently gotten out of a relationship and wasn't on the prowl. I just thought it would be nice to have someone else there for conversation.

Once I got down to the house in Provo they were all waiting for me. Then we were deciding what crazy things we could do for the weekend. THAT'S when ShaNae and I met for the first time. (Unless you ask her…She has no memory of this night. Probably because she too, had recently gotten out of a relationship and had no interest in the opposite gender.) Anyway, no one had any great ideas until my buddy and I decided to go to the store for some dry ice and make a dry ice bomb in the park near his house. So we went to the store and got all the needed material. Then, later, to the park so no one would be walking through as we were making it. It turned out to be one of the biggest fails ever. Nothing even happened. We stood out there watching it for probably an hour before we decided to go up and see why it hadn't gone off. The dry ice had melted a hole in the plastic bottle and let out all the water...oh. That's why...

This whole time we were all talking about random things but mostly ShaNae and I were along for the ride while our best friends were doing their thing. I guess I didn’t make an impression on ShaNae because I didn’t talk much and I didn’t try to impress her because she made it clear she was not looking for any type of relationship and in fact hated most males at this moment in her life.

The next time we met was at Chili’s with her friend, which is the first time she remembers meeting me. After that, all four of us started hanging out together, going to parties or just chillin on the weekends. Throughout these few months, ShaNae always made it clear that she was not looking for a relationship so I never tried anything with her. But that wasn't exactly what I wanted. I remember from the first time meeting her that I was attracted to her. Not just because she was a gorgeous ginger, but because of her personality as well. She wasn’t like other girls I had dated or been friends with in the past. She was much more…real. If I had one word to describe ShaNae it would be REAL. Because she doesn’t ever put a mask on for anyone or ever pretend to be someone she isn’t. If she didn’t like you she would tell you to your face instead of pretending to get along with you. At first it took me by surprise, and I’m not going to lie I was intimidated by her, which is another reason I didn’t try to ask her out or anything. We were just friends who hung out on the weekends and no more. But again, I didn’t try anything with her because she made it clear that she hated men…not because I didn’t want to. She always intrigued me though and I felt myself becoming more and more attracted to her the better I got to know her. But all I could do was be myself and see if she started to trust people again and see where we could go. Then when the summer came along and she stopped hanging out with us I was a bit disappointed. There goes this amazing girl who I had started to fall for and she never even knew. And for all I knew I would never see her again.

Well that is my side of the story of how we met and the first few months of our crazy relationship. Since she is much better at writing and storytelling I’ll let her tell the rest of our story. But I would like to take some time to embarrass her and maybe tell everyone some things she wouldn’t otherwise tell.  Hopefully she doesn’t get too mad at me.

First thing that I find funny is the terrible luck she has with cops. She hasn’t had a single run in with the law that had gone her way. I on the other hand am the exact opposite. I have only had one speeding ticket which was when I was seventeen, and every time I have been pulled over since I have had a cool police officer who was super nice and let me off with a warning. This doesn’t make her happy either…Don’t even ask her how many times she has been pulled over. She finally had her license suspended because she had too many points on her record. Let just say that I do most of the driving when we are together.

One of our favorite things to do together is to go rock climbing at the Quarry in Provo. ShaNae got me all my gear for Christmas and since then we have tried to go as often as possible. We are always looking for people to go with us on Friday nights since we get in two people for free with our passes (*winkwink*).

One of the funniest things I have ever witnessed has been when ShaNae had the hiccups. I was literally on the ground crying the first time she got them when we were together. I can’t even explain them; you just have to witness them for yourself to understand how funny they are. 

Every opportunity I have to brag about ShaNae, I take, and this seems like one of the best places to do just that. So...

Simply put, ShaNae is the best thing that has ever happened in my life. But, at the same time, one of the hardest. Which has been no one’s fault.  We just frequently question how after all the many things that have almost torn us apart, we've have managed to keep it together. All I can say is, and I’m sure that ShaNae will agree with me on this, the Big Man better be ready to start throwing some blessings our way. We need a break!!

The biggest blessing in my life is going to happen in a month from now when we are married for time and all eternity in the Temple of the Lord. It is something we both thought would happen later in our lives when we were either more established, more prepared, had more money or one of a thousand other reasons. But we decided that now is the time for us to finally tie the knot. (And I’m pretty sure if we wait any longer something else will happen. Between the amnesia and heart surgery and having to postpone the wedding this many times already, I’m not letting ShaNae out of my sight until we are married and I can go with her on her crazy adventures.)

I guess just to end I want to remind ShaNae how in love with her I am. I’ve never been a real touchy person; ShaNae has changed that for me. I have never been able to talk to people the way I can talk to ShaNae. I never pictured myself falling in love with such an amazing woman the way I have with ShaNae.  I have never had anyone motivate me to do things with my life until I met and fell in love with ShaNae.  In short she makes me a better person in all areas of my life. I love that she has goals in all aspects of her life including school, personal goals, religion and the family life we are going to start together. She is the most incredible woman I have ever met and once again I couldn’t be more grateful for her and I love her so much.